Life Behind the Veil - Laetitia Zeeman

As a young girl, I was so inspired by the story of Esther and the beautiful picture in my children’s bible.  I would look at it for hours, day dreaming about how someone will one day come and rescue me to take me to a harem (without knowing what the word “harem” actually meant) and how I will be chosen and after being chosen, my veil will be removed and we will live happily ever after.

In my imagination, I would be dressed in beautiful shades of blues and purple.  I also remember playing with my friends or cousins.  I will be captured, locked up in a tower and the prince (my cousin) will come and rescue me and take me to his harem and then he will choose me.  In my mind the word “harem” simply meant “women’s quarters” in a castle.  

Funny thing is the moment my prince (cousin) took me to his “harem” neither one of us would know exactly what needed to happen next and then the game was getting boring.  Once you got saved and taken to the harem, it was “game over”.

When waking up early this morning, I suddenly remembered that it is exactly a year ago when I woke up at three in the morning and had such an amazing out of body experience when I was taken to the beach where Jesus was waiting for me.  

Before falling asleep the previous night I asked God some questions.  There were things I didn’t understand.  

On the beach, Jesus started answering my questions and showed me some things concerning my upcoming week and my future.  

Everything about Him represented LOVE.

I didn’t like what He was showing me.  I was crying and fighting, arguing with Him, pulling Him around, but He was not offended at all.  He simply smiled at me knowing that I misunderstood but would soon know the meaning of the encounter.

I remembered something else this morning.  It was also on the 1^st of August 2005 when my husband (after a marriage of 17 years) left and moved out 15 years ago.  

The veil was removed.  He was getting bored with me and it was “game over”. But it’s not hurting anymore. It’s so long ago that it actually feels like someone else’s life and not my life anymore.

Today is 1^st August again.  I am grateful, extremely grateful.  

When Jesus died on the cross, the veil was removed and since then we have free access to heaven.  It was “game over” for the enemy but most definitely not “game over” for me and having a relationship with Him is most definitely not boring.

1 Peter 2:9 remind me that I am God’s chosen treasure – a priest who is also a king, a spiritual “nation” set apart as God’s devoted one.  He called me out of darkness to experience His marvelous light, and now He claims me as His very own.  He did this so that I can broadcast His glorious wonders throughout the world.

Ephesians 1:4-6 remind me that He chose me to be His very own, joining me to Himself even before He laid the foundation of the universe.  Because of His great love, He ordained me, so that I would be seen as holy in His eyes with an unstained innocence.  It was always in His perfect plan to adopt me as His delightful child, through my union with Jesus, the Anointed One, so that His tremendous love that cascade over me would glorify His grace – for the same love He has for His Beloved One, Jesus, He has for me.  And this unfolding plan brings Him great pleasure!

Ephesians 1:3 reminds me that every spiritual blessing in the heavenly realm has already been lavished upon me as a love gift from my wonderful heavenly Father, the Father of our Lord Jesus – all because He sees me wrapped into Christ.  This is why I celebrate Him with all my heart.

Romans 8:28 reminds me that every detail of my life is continually woven together to fit into God’s perfect plan of bringing good into my life, for I am His lover and I have been called to fulfill His designed purpose.

Ephesians 2:10 reminds me I am His poetry, re-created to fulfill the destiny He has given me, for I am joined to Jesus, the Anointed One.  Even before I was born, God planned in advance my destiny and the good works I would do to fulfill it!

John 15:16 reminds me that I didn’t choose Him, but He chose me to commission me to go into the world to bear fruit and my fruit will last because whatever I ask of my Father, for my sake, He will give it to me!  This is His command:  Love one another deeply!  And this is what I do.  I love deeply.

Life with Him, behind the veil, is never boring, never ending because I am chosen and because I believe in immortality, I will never have to hear or experience those words ever again:  “Game Over”.

He came to give me LIFE – LIFE in ABUNDANCE! NEVER ENDING LIFE!

Because He is in me, and I am in Him, I am chosen.

Life behind the veil - never boring.